It’s so hard to break the boundaries that society has put on us, but you have to. I know it’s hard not be scared about your future. You think you have to work non-stop so you can live when you’re older, but f*ck it. Your teenage years will be the best years of your life. So go live them: road trips, making music, whatever. Just go do it. Don’t waste your time now for the future because, it may never happen. You could be killed tomorrow. I’m never going to live my life in the conventional form that is birth, school, college, work, marriage, the grave. F*ck this. Go chase the sunset.
~ Oli Sykes (Bring Me The Horizon)
— What do you think of the quote above? Do you agree? I’m kind of in the middle, I sort of do but sort of don’t. I do love Oli Sykes though —
Do you ever think about the future? I think about the future most nights when I can’t sleep. Whether it’s next summers’ athletics season or what I end up doing in university or even whether I’ll have kids one day, the future is something I always have on my mind. I think that’s because I don’t like where I am at present, and because my Dad always asks me questions about what I want to be when I grow up.
I was thinking about it last night, about where I’ll be in 10 years. I’ll be 25, so what will I have done? Will I have travelled? Gone to university? Got a job? Got a boyfriend? Moved out of home? What will I look like by then? What clothes will I wear? What music will I listen to? What hobbies will I have? What will my social life be like? There are so many questions and absolutely no answers. It’s scary, the future. What if I screw up my gcses and everything else I wanted to do doesn’t happen because of it? What if I die and I’m nowhere in 10 years? What if I still have no friends? There are so many “what ifs” and it worries me. But at the same time I want the future to hurry up and happen. I want to be out of this town, studying at university in a big city like London. I want to meet new people and travel the world with my best friends or my boyfriend if I magically end up with one. But whatever, there’s no point worrying, I’ll just have to wait and see where the future takes me. And I hope it takes me somewhere good.
Today, I went to my first athletics training session of the year. I was really glad to be back, I have a few friends there and I hadn’t seen them since before Christmas. Two of them had new phones and one wouldn’t stop talking about the hot boy she kissed on Christmas Eve. Training was good, I wore my new socks and they were comfy. I’d injured my foot before Christmas and hadn’t been training much in December, so it was so great to be back running without being in pain. Well I was in pain, we all were. It was the first session back like I said, and we were all out of condition. One girl was sick. Damn I can’t wait till the Summer, I’ve worked really hard this year so I’m looking forward to seeing if it pays off in competitions.
I spent this afternoon messing around with themes and headers on my blog, does it look better?
In the comments, tell me what you want for the future. If you want that is. Hopefully this post was more interesting than yesterdays’.
Good evening,
Vicky
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